וּמִבְּשָׂרִי, אֶחֱזֶה אֱלוֹה “Umivsari Echeze Bo” jyungar July 4, 2017 וּמִבְּשָׂרִי, אֶחֱזֶה אֱלוֹהַּ“ And when after my skin this is destroyed, then without my flesh shall I see God”Job 19:26Looking out on the landscape belowSome thousand feet up in the tropical rain forest All the way to the blue coast lineIn the distanceI feel the benign soft hand of mother nature Laying out thegreen forest canopy like a carpet For my eyes to glide downBeckoning me into her armsIn a lush embrace.No wonder the ancients worshipper herAfraid too, of her fierce rage.But today she is calmThe rain clouds, despite the humidityAllow for a tepid warmthProtecting us from the fierce Caribbean sun.Then the sky gods arrivedAnd later, the Old TestamentWith justice and mercyAnd all manners of reasoning,And the price to pay was all manner of demythologizing,Allowing for the illusion of the beginnings and.. the ends oftime Where the final reckoning might take placeAnd the payoff for sin or redemption.As if the psychic projections of mankind needed this senseOf right and wrong,But with it, the tyrant god mirroring the tyrant king.And soWe inherit this psychic embryologyProjecting good and right on the divineAnd bad and evil onto the devilA split psyche with its public persona and privatedarkness within.But looking down todayIt feels good to embrace her once againFree from the social, religious and cultural constraintsFree from the traffic and noise,Free from the expectations of work, family and social order. For a few minutes.Yet fixing and healing must be done The work must continueThe “tikkun” will take place willy-nilly And it must begin here and now Within me.How to deal with the darkness withinThe wounds of the past bearing heavily on the present.How to become more compassionateMore openMore willing to tolerate and sufferNot to be triggeredNot to be afraidNot to see work as an escape from the inner task at hand.How to stop projecting it all on the sky god or the devilHow to stop projecting the wounds of the past onto the divine How to own the inner demonsThese questions remainHere today.Yea “I went to the woods” alrightBut Waldon Pond is no longer accessible There is no timeEverything is acceleratingLiving is a cyber whirlwindAnd just keeping up is breathtaking.So, let me enjoy her warmth and lush carpet of greenBeckoning me todayA moment of respiteIn an aging mindBecoming stuck in routineTo avoid the ultimate questionsWe all faceAnd realizing how fragile this all is This timeThis placeIn meTo resist the constant sense of failure Morally,intellectually and socially For just this moment.